Nindia's Letters

Dear loved ones,

Have you ever felt like you’re not good enough? Or you don’t fit in?

I’ve felt that way too, and truthfully, it sucks.

“You will soon find your purpose in life and will finally understand the meaning of life.”

These are cliché statements that are easier to say than do. How do know your purpose? Even if we keep on praying, God doesn’t always answer right away. 

From what I’ve experienced, loving ourselves and embracing our personal traits are the first step to express our love to God. Stop comparing yourself with other people, stop trying to be someone else, and stop trying to please other people for all the wrong reasons. People can always tell the difference between a genuine heart and a pretender. It’s hard to pretend to be someone else and much worse, people can always sense the awkwardness! It's true that some people are so good at pretending that no one will notice. But is it true happiness to lose your own identity? What determines happiness in this life? Is it being successful? Is it to have lots of money to spend? Or is it to fulfill your life's purpose? We have seen lots celebrities ended up feeling depressed even when they're on top of their career and rich people feeling empty even when they can afford anything they want. But when a person understands his purpose in life, he has a vision of what he can achieve and WILL achieve. It’s his motivation to live his life to the utmost potential. It is God’s way of saying that we should be comfortable, embrace His gifts for YOU, and discover your place in this world. Be active and seek His guidance.

The moment that I let go of all others’ expectations of me, I have become much more confident. I have started to discover my passions, talents, and my meaning of life. And due to the same exact reason, I have also started sending you these letters. I want to relate to you, share you these stories, and inspire you. I know that you are a special individual in His eyes, it would be amazing if you yourself can see how much potential you have.

For years I could not separate myself from others. I did not have a specific hobby nor talent that makes me “special”. One advice that I could give to those of you who feel the same way is to try experience various POSITIVE activities and find a supportive community. Experiment yourself with something positive and discover what makes you happy. For instance, don't try to smoke or get drunk just to ‘express’ yourself or as a reason to find your ‘purpose’, because God will never put His creations to do negative things. Finding a supportive community will not only help you discover your potentials, but can also be a way for you to exercise those gifts and in return helping other people who need it!

I am always here as your supportive companion and I hope through these letters, you will learn a thing or two. Keep on smiling and share these with your friends who might need it J

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To: my Dearest Friend,

Hey, how was Christmas? Or is it that you don’t celebrate? I can’t quiet remember, but nevertheless I hope you enjoy your holidays!

As for me, Christmas means a lot more to me this year. I did enjoy my time off from work but on top of that I learned to take a step back and really connect with God. When I went to Church, the message that the preacher was sending touched my heart. As it is written in Hebrews 4:12-13

Give yourself to God as raw and honest as possible, as God will fix any imperfections and overflow any shortage we have. Even if it’s the jolliest time of the year, we cannot run away from the fact that we carry our own burden, anger, jealousy, and all sorts of negativity every day! Therefore, Christmas is a constant reminder that God has sent Jesus to this world as a symbol that He accepts our deficiencies. Jesus will always open up his right hand as a way of him saying “share your burden with me, and I will be your friend who strengthens you.” This almost made me cry as I have experienced times when I just couldn’t tell anyone how I feel and the only way out is to PRAY. Try to lock yourself in your room, kneel down, and start praying. Treat praying just like how you would tell stories to your friends (just like how I write these letters to you!). Praying can be serious at times, but it can definitely be a fun thing to do as well. Just by praying, I’ve learned a lot to reflect on myself and truly experience HIS presence.

I hope I don’t bore you with these stories, but I feel like it would be such a shame not to share these! You’re my friend, and I want you to experience this too. No one is perfect in this world, but striving for a better self seems like a good idea; and for me, having a better relationship with God makes me a better person. That story is for next time, but for now, try to pray and OPEN your heart. You never know how God will talk to you ;)

I love you and He loves you too

From 

Your True Friend

Nindia Djie